Fight Song

Image credit: Financially Blonde

Like a small boat
On the ocean
Sending big waves
Into motion
Like how a single word
Can make a heart open
I might only have one match
But I can make an explosion

And all those things I didn’t say
Wrecking balls inside my brain
I will scream them loud tonight
Can you hear my voice this time?

This is my fight song
Take back my life song
Prove I’m alright song
My power’s turned on
Starting right now I’ll be strong
I’ll play my fight song
And I don’t really care if nobody else believes
‘Cause I’ve still got a lot of fight left in me

Losing friends and I’m chasing sleep
Everybody’s worried about me
In too deep
Say I’m in too deep (in too deep)
And it’s been two years I miss my home
But there’s a fire burning in my bones
Still believe
Yeah, I still believe

And all those things I didn’t say…

This song came up for me a few years ago when my dear Uncle passed away and it helped my to feel through it all and be back on top of things. It has recently popped up again on my radar as I am healing from the loss of my Grandma. I feel the last 3 months have been a tough, challenging and growth filled journey. It felt as though I was down… but not out. This song articulates how I am feeling now that I am on the tail end of my journey with depression, grief and anxiety.

I used to think that it was inappropriate to write or post about something as personal as losing a loved one but after my journey, I have found that writing is cathartic. Hence, why I blog and have been writing since a very young age to help me process feelings and emotions. I find it helps me to express in words what I sometimes cannot express out loud. In this instance, writing about my experience helped me with my grief which proved a catalyst for my healing. As I have mentioned previously, grief is different for everyone. There is no right or wrong, just different and I have learnt you cannot superimpose your own experience onto someone else. What you feel or experience is very different to another – even family members. 

I share my experiences via my blog in the hope that it can touch someone else, maybe give someone a sense that they are not alone and can resonate with my journey. It is by no means an indicator of how anyone else’s experience or journey may entail but I would like you to know that you are not alone. Please reach out when you need help. Asking for help is NOT a sign of weakness but rather, a sign of strength. Remember, life will never give you what you cannot handle and if you ever need any assistance to handle what life throws at you – please remember there are always people who love you, help you and wish you well. They will assist you to regain your strength to fight and Laugh. Love. Live. another day! Peace and blessings – Namaste! 


This is my fight song
Take back my life song
Prove I’m alright song
My power’s turned on
Starting right now I’ll be strong
I’ll play my fight song
And I don’t really care if nobody else believes
‘Cause I’ve still got a lot of fight left in me

https://youtu.be/xo1VInw-SKc

Here is a list of some support services for depression and anxiety in Australia and please refer to your GP and/ or support services available in your country:

https://www.beyondblue.org.au/

https://www.lifeline.org.au/

https://www.blackdoginstitute.org.au/

https://au.reachout.com/articles/support-services-for-depression

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4 comments

  1. yassy · December 5

    You are a brave heart. You are my tigress my lioness gentle yet strong. Sending you warm hugs and smiles.

    Liked by 1 person

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